Im just so fed up, - i cant wait for the time when i can jump off earth?

Your ex and your pal are not worth having in your life. You should first of all realize that there is a God that loves you more than anyone ever can or will. That goes for everyone on this Earth. Next you need to realize how special of a person you are that you are so loyal to the people in your life. I would suggest that you try to keep your head up and be the bigger person. As for your ex, make it seem as if he means nothing to you and let him get his things out of your life. And for your friend, you may want to slowly give her space. When you get to the point where things dont phase you, that is when good things will happen. You will find another friend who always wants to be there for you and then out of nowhere and when you least expect it, your perfect man will come. Thats what i always tell my friends, when they stop worrying so much about finding that great guy then thats when he comes and it has happened just as i said. Dont worry, you will be fine. You are a special person and you were born for a reason. Get rid of all notions that question why you should be here, within life you will find the answer:)